GO BIG

I sent this pic to my dad. Im happy i could do that. It was like 14$ but I think its worth it for him to have a nice picture of me racing... speaking of racing, the next 3 weekends i have races.... FUCCCCCCCCCCk. i am going to be realllllllly poor. Rice and beans anyone???

On another note, i fucked my computer in the ear. totally fucked up the bootloader (darrin told me not to mess with it, i should have listened). Oh well, I will be up all night trying to get it back on line...

Other then that, my weekend was nice. Relaxing. I didnt really do much, finished BSG which is AWESOME but I am actually kinda sad that its over... really sad. To anyone that hasnt seen it, you need to watch it. 4 seasons of amazing writing and acting. super dope series.

and other other then that, I had poutine for dinner and it was amazing. I should start eating poutine more, maybe bulk up a little for those cold lonely winter nights....

20mm of POWER

FINALLY got my fucking fork! WOOOOO! its soo big and beefy, really makes up for my skinny-ness. Time to tear the shit up and do some fucking big stuff. thats what I'm sayin.

I need a break though. Just a little one. with someone, somewhere, not here.

Hmmm who, what, and where....

I can ride my bike with wide handlebars!!

What a wild last 48 hours.
Party at the bosses place in Laval, never been there before. Got pushed in a pool, 1 hour bike ride home in wet shoes, beautiful night. Interesting...

Lazy day, an answer to a boring question I was about to ask. No further response. But the timing puzzles me. How can the answer come before the question unless there is some sort of connection.

Night with the guys, a friend I didnt expect to see, almost another. Nice bike ride home. Took my daily picture to express myself to you, I hope you check.

And in all of that; "A" wanted a beer, "B" - creme glace, and a dreamer asks for fun or company - unknown. All of which are turned down as my thoughts stay on the same, strait, course.

Blue Beach Party

So the BBP was a riot. Broken table, coconut cup, blue gin and tonic's and a beer soaked bed.

What more could you ask for?

.....someone to help clean up! hahaha. naw just kiddin, its allllll good.

Big Enough For Ya?

Deffffinetly the biggest air I've ever done on a fixed gear.... it took me a while to get it but once I did, 3 in a row. I don't think I could have done it without Austrian Death Machine as my soundtrack. Seriously, check that project from the singer of As I Lay Dying out. It's Total Brutal.

Other then that, I'm really tired. I have no idea why, or maybe I do. I'm starting to think that with nothing filling the gap each day is harder then it needs to be. Apparently I'm always angry at work too, that's gotta change. I liked when I had something to make me smile throughout the day. Something to get my mind off of the daily grind. Something that wasn't a possession, but a part of me.

WEMOTO

Just wait till you see the riding pics...

whats the deal

Is it a re-occurring lapse in judgement, the desire for the things one can't have, or have I finally gone crazy.

It's really the question 'why'. I know what it is I want, but I don't know why.... Or do I know why and am I just afraid of the confidence that comes with knowing. From a distance I am strong and confident, but when I get close I close my bubble and observe instead of creating actions for reaction. I feel the need to express myself with actions and not words, yet I know the latter will make the actions much easier.

Socializing.

I think I missed that lesson earlier on and now I'm paying for it. Do I even have the patients! It always seems too late, but is it? Why would it still be there if it was too late..

Why; there it is again. I know why, It's because I need to get this lesson in life. How to be confident in myself without being a dick. How to express myself in a way that you can understand, that I can understand. How to continually grow. Sure I've figured out how to not go backwards, but I pause and I know it.

I need you. I know you're out there and you need me too.

WHEEEELLLIIIIEEE!!!

Mad catwalk around a corner gone bad.... fuuuuck.


Hey, I'm not a toy. Do you know that?

Two

4:35 AM
The water is perfectly clear as glass.
A place to sit for two,
Passed by one.


Took this with the camera on my phone and Im really surprised at how it looks, I like it.

TEAMS!

Larry and I made sweet spoke cards cuz we are freakin hilarious.... then I shot him, oops! I swear I didnt think I would hit him.

Who wants to come watch a movie?