Yes yes. splish splash. wish wash. up down. in out.
where are we going? why am I so needy? don't push too hard.

Diggin' it

There's something special about you, I've known it the whole time. I'm crazy for more, but happy with what I have. There are so many different paths to take, choices to make, things to learn. Sure there is a lot to stress about, a lot to deal with, but when I look past that, live in the now and feel the surrounding energy I'm alive. That's what its all about. I don't know what I've been waiting for! Sure, money is an issue, but why let it control my life? If you're not living then whats the point. SHARE! why not? seriously. I have a lot of things, but that's it, they are just things. "Happiness is only real when shared". That's what I want. Share my happiness, experiences, life, and everything in between. Why not?

and as I crawled into bed I realized, it's love I have to share...

Rollercoaster week

What a week. It started out just PERFECT! riding, more riding, cuddling, riding again, then Thursday morning BAM!! Yelled at a jay-walker "get off the road asshole", he just happened to be the guy that's having troubles at work. Yeah he was breaking the law, but me knowing that hes got issues I am supposed to refrain from yelling at him. So I get in more trouble for that even though he tries to start a fight with me at work. Seriously, I really hate pedestrians that stand 4-5 feet off of the corner at a red light! You are ON THE FUCKING ROAD and I am turning around a corner. Yes you are in my way and yes it is YOU that is in the wrong. Get on the fucking sidewalk. "Yeah but Dayne, how many red lights do to run on your way to work". I try not to burn any lights, but if I did, do you think I would be pissed if someone yelled at me for breaking the law? I guess I might yell back "fuck you" but its true, they are right. Anyway, two wrongs don't make a right. Even if I did something wrong that doesn't mean someone else can!

OK ok, that day started off terrible, but its nice out. You said maybe Thursday, I'm already sleep deprived but maybe you will wake me up... no, not Thursday.... argh I've got a tummy ache....

Friday, finally. Yesterday sucked and Wednesday was tooo long, I'm tired, I want you.... you might be busy? .. I'll wait all day to find out, but it only makes me want it more... whatever its not gonna happen. The "I don't know" frustrates me, I think of the worst possibilities (always). Wake up Dayne, you love life!.

Uhhh yes, saturday is mellow. not too much work and the weather is calm. I can dig it. Maybe some riding after work? yes yes! that will make me happy! SMASH, ouch, a tree. Ok, lets go again.... SLIIIIPPP! wooo that mud is SLIPPERY! a few more tries and I smash my knee so hard on my front wheel its bent and I can barely walk! OUCH!!!

I'm a big baby! I need comforting! ha! waittt a second, reality, wake up. GOT IT. I'm selfish.

I have no reason to worry, or be upset, or be a baby about anything! everything is fucking awesome (except my inability to dirtjump, causing my knee pain).

seriously, I'm dumb and you're amazing.

Vroom vroom.

Sore, tired, worn out, AWESOME. Seriously, fuck yes. Ride ride ride cuddle ride wheelie ride cuddle cuddle ride wheelie jump ride wheelie cuddle = The Summer Plan. Seriously, I have ridden my mountain bike more this year then I have the last 3 years put together, I LOVE it. I am having a perfect start to the summer. I have everything I need and most things I want. Lets keep doing this, more and more, you and me.